Gras
Everyday before work, whenever I would get ready in front of a mirror, I loudly complain to myself that I’m getting fat…ter…Okay, I started getting a little chubby siguro a couple of years back, but now I can say I’m just plain fat. Please don’t imagine Delia Atay-atayan yet. That’s just to describe how I feel with what I see and being my own worst critic. None of my regular clothes fit anymore and I always end up having an invisible belt because the pants have gotten a little too tight and the waistband always leaves its little souvenir (if you know what I mean…or maybe not). Gosh, its one of those things I never imagined myself saying years ago when I was so "skinny"(or my brother would say tiki w/ an emphasis on the 2nd syllable). I was so niwang back in HS that I almost looked emaciated. I couldn’t look back at old pics without laughing at myself. When my husband, who was my boyfriend back then, visited my mom at home, I made sure to ask our Manang Anet to screen all our photo albums and remove any pic where I looked skinny and ugly. Of course, it was impossible for my husband not to find out when my mom mismo told him about my instructions.
Anyhoot, before I go any further, this blog will not be about my plan on losing weight but to share my dissatisfaction with my weight changes. I don’t need any tips or articles on weight loss as I have easy access to that information. I know I’ll eventually be motivated enough to lose the weight but let me complain for the meantime. How could I resist great food when I’m surrounded by good cooks at home? Both my husband and sister-in-law makes all these yummy-licios dishes and even my brother would whip up something every now and then. It surely doesn’t help watching Food Network all the time and having a husband who lets me have my cravings.
Friends who haven’t seen me at this weight ask me if I’m pregnant. Pregnant? Not anytime soon. I plan to lose a little weight first before taking on any baby weight. hmm….Even in my phone calls to nanay, she would remind me, "Te Ting, nagay patambok dira ha, basi indi ikaw magbusong". hayy…
To be continued…
